and there i was thinking our litle boat was sinking

Well I sure have not posted for a while so i thought I'd use my lovely Sunday afternoon to do so.
I am coming home in January, after the semester of school ends and i am looking for ward to it. I just cant take it anymore, being here. I can't, i should have listened.

I thought this would be easier for me to do
but all I've done is drown myself in quicksand.
i said i wanted to chose but maybe having someone
else chose for me would have caused me so much less pain.

and I'm standing here with nothing but the wind
lost in despair and alone in the dark.
and then there's you watching me, with not even one remark.

why did it come to this
when you could have made a simple fix
well now I'm done with all of your tricks
and off to find a better way.

i wanted it to be different but your brainwashed into cement
a cold heart and solid mind has led me to change mine.
i don't know why i gave you a second chance when i know you didn't deserve it.
maybe the thought of you changing for me, loving me.
but now i know that was out of the question.

i say you've hurt me and you say its going to be okay.
you don't understand. your so low all you know is how to betray.
i believed you when you said you wanted me, it was all just a lie
and now I'm forced too say goodbye.

why did it come to this
when you could have made a simple fix
well now I'm done with all of your tricks
and off to find a better way.

you've left me with no where to go.
all i wanted was to know.
the truth, but it's been lost in time.
there's now way of turning back the clock
there's now way of tuning back what you've done.

You have left me once before and now its my time.
i now have to let down others because of you. i have to leave
what i have created and tear it down and start at square one, again.
the moment i felt on top of the world, you tore me down and made me start again.
i am nothing but a tiny square and this is what you've created, i hope your proud.

why did it come to this
when you could have made a simple fix
well now I'm done with all of your tricks
and off to find a better way.

why did i choose this,
i was so sure, but now you have me questioning my own being.
i want to be the bigger person and not blame it on you
because i was the one who came, who decided to try, then again
your the one who drown me in sorrow and pushed me away when i reached out.

all i have to say is I'm sorry, I'm sorry you wont be able to see me again.
I'm sorry you wont get to see me grow old, even though you never really have
I'm sorry you had to see me cry all those nights over you.
I'm sorry you had to lie to me. I'm sorry that you have none of my respect anymore.
I'm done, I'm done, I'm done. I'm done with you.

why did it come to this
when you could have made a simple fix
well now I'm done with all of your tricks
and off to find a better way.

People say love is blind but i don't even feel it anymore.
you've stripped me clean of feeling it for you.
I've forgiven you but i will never love you.
not anymore. not again. i know its a waste of my time
because i know you will never feel the same.
I'm done, I'm done, I'm done.