the best piece of advice i've ever given:

Thats a really sticky situation, i wouldn't go for him honestly babe. hes left you 3 times and now he's telling you that he loves you? it hardly makes any sense. if he truly loved you then he wouldn't have told you because he knew it would make you're life so much more dramatic. and plus since it was sarahs first time, it would kind of be like a devistation to her having her best friend date him. i know this sounsds corny but if you love him, you'll let him go. and you'll find some way to get over it and find out a way to find love again, but it is you're choice, just listen to what you're heart says. what i just said was an oppinion and something i think, its all up to you, adn thasts one of the hardest things, i know you want someone to tell you what to do, but it's best it came from you.

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Love.
no one knows the true and full meaning of the word
but somehow i am jealous of thoes who have a
better understanding than i do.

its quite a complex thing when you think about it.
im sure that everyone can say that they love their parents
but thats only because they made you and you have a bond
that no one could ever dismantle.

but honestly what is love, the affection you feel towards someone
or the deep endless and unconditional admiration thats
shared among two people. theres no one word that can express
the deep emotion felt by one.

i guess we all have a description inside of us of what love is
but hardly any of us are bold enough to share it.

never forget what you think love is, because thats what will keep you going for the
rest of your life

check out the song: message from your heart
by: Kina Grannis

god is love, have an amazing day.

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“Follow me into the sunset
Where we will wait for the dark to come
When it’s time we will trace our steps into the night
Entering the place of wonder where no worries are present
Chase me towards the dusk
Where no mistakes can be made”
-kyla

haha sorry this is kind of depressing

Slipping through your grip

i have to leave you now.
to start an unfamilliar journey
when you gaze into my eyes i see the pain and
mysery that forms. Im sorry
i just cant deal with this any more.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
Hold me in you're arms tand stay with me forever.

i dont know how things will be but i do know
that i will pray every night and day
to let god kow what i have to say.

i see how you are scared now
and i remember all the memories that we shared,
i can't leave you behind with all this and the
anticipation of my farewell.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
hold me in you're arms and stay with me forever.

your comforting touch and beautiful
love will always keep me drawn into your
soul and keep me alive. away from anguish and
helplessness. you always know how to
take care of me when i need you, you're always there.

im scared to leave you mom
please dont forget me while i am gone
but know that i will always come back to
your arms, i will always be you're kindly
kindly kyla.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
hold me in you're arms and stay with me forever.

I'm moving away to my dads and
my mom is like my life line and i dont know what to do
what if i run out and drive myself into a giant hole of
desperation and failure.

this is the scaries thing of my life.
and whenever i think of leaving my mom
i fell like i want to cry, but then i think off all the
bad things going on in my life here
and how much they would be fixed if i just moved away.
but is that always the answer, just to run away?
to flee the premis when something goes wrong?
i feel like im abandoing all the ones i love
but that i need to do this for me,
im sorry.