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“Follow me into the sunset
Where we will wait for the dark to come
When it’s time we will trace our steps into the night
Entering the place of wonder where no worries are present
Chase me towards the dusk
Where no mistakes can be made”
-kyla

haha sorry this is kind of depressing

Slipping through your grip

i have to leave you now.
to start an unfamilliar journey
when you gaze into my eyes i see the pain and
mysery that forms. Im sorry
i just cant deal with this any more.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
Hold me in you're arms tand stay with me forever.

i dont know how things will be but i do know
that i will pray every night and day
to let god kow what i have to say.

i see how you are scared now
and i remember all the memories that we shared,
i can't leave you behind with all this and the
anticipation of my farewell.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
hold me in you're arms and stay with me forever.

your comforting touch and beautiful
love will always keep me drawn into your
soul and keep me alive. away from anguish and
helplessness. you always know how to
take care of me when i need you, you're always there.

im scared to leave you mom
please dont forget me while i am gone
but know that i will always come back to
your arms, i will always be you're kindly
kindly kyla.

loosing grip on your hands
while grasping for your heart
i will never let go no matter how
close i am to slipping and falling into dispair
i am afraid to be free from your security.
hold me in you're arms and stay with me forever.

I'm moving away to my dads and
my mom is like my life line and i dont know what to do
what if i run out and drive myself into a giant hole of
desperation and failure.

this is the scaries thing of my life.
and whenever i think of leaving my mom
i fell like i want to cry, but then i think off all the
bad things going on in my life here
and how much they would be fixed if i just moved away.
but is that always the answer, just to run away?
to flee the premis when something goes wrong?
i feel like im abandoing all the ones i love
but that i need to do this for me,
im sorry.